Why I suck at commitments…

Yup…I suck at commitments. Its not like I’ve really gotten into too many in the past few years, but when you have too many…it sort of becomes hard to control all the same time.

For example, I’m basically in my freshman year of high school, but its Middle School where I’m studying (long story…too lazy to explain), which means they basically are trying to prepare us for the horrors of high school. BUT, not everyone can brace for impact, especially someone like me, because I’m the kind of person who pounces on too many activities and ends up over-stressing her life.

So in a normal week, I have rehearsals for School Musical from 4-6 pm on Mondays, sometimes rehearsals from 4-6 pm, then Badminton training from 6:30 pm to 7:40 (its actually till 8, but I leave early for something else), and I rush to my music theory class which ends at 10 pm…which is when I finally get to begin on H.W. After that, Wednesdays I have piano lessons, and then Thursday I either volunteer for CAS or have more drama rehearsals. And Fridays…meh its my relaxation time along with my beautiful Saturday and Sunday…

But it’s always a stressful week for me…I suck at commitments..I’m working on it. And then I realize Vivian…wtf…u also have a blog to take care of and I panic because I have almost 4 different drafts of posts that I’ve wanted to post, but I have been SO lazy to write because of how stressed I get. And judging by my last post, there’s my ever changing love life which annoys and if it just got solved, I’d have ONE less thing to worry about.

Oh well..I apologize for being so lazy, and I’ll try my best to blog  little more. And maybe I’ll finally manage to get some of my drafts into final pieces.

Meh (my signature word these days), au revoir peoples! 😛

Love ❤



Hello World!

And before my writing mood runs down from 5% to 0%, I have an amazing announcement to make!

I finally finished writing my whole MUST READ PAGE! And I’m happy the way it turned out! 😛

But, I did it on a page, which means people need to be aware of it! Plus, why copy paste it all on this post when you can just go onto the page!? (i’m just lazy…that’s all)

So just click on this “word” or just click on that button on the side! You know…the one that has lines, and then gives you a list of pages? You have to click on Must reads??

I really hope you like it, and if you do, just like this post (or the page if possible). Comment if you feel like it, and also please oh please I’d love some suggestions on books!!!

Stay Awesome World!

Vivian ❤

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No One’s Online!? – A Frustrated Teen’s Poem

Blocked by my newest friend

GRREAT! No one’s online!


Are there monsters in the dark??

There’s a metal one on my face!


My rooms in a mess!

Wait…where’s my favorite jeans???


Oh GOD there’s atest tomorrow!!!

Still no friends online?!


My teeth are so sore…

Never gonna forgive Jim, NEVER


Why isn’t anyone online??

I have Mathomework due tomorrow…


My life is SO UNFAIR!

OMG! The lights just went off…

No Wifi now, so no Whatsapp 😦

What time is it??


I hate Jim, I so hate him

I wish Yoda were here…


No sign of life online anymore

I’m probably going to be dead by tomorrow.


I hope you liked it, I’d love to get some kind of feedback because I am new to writing poems (and I extremely suck). Fall break is coming around the corner so…


Vivian ❤

Texting Dilemma…I NEED to Fix It

Being the ever-so-enthusiastic teen I am, I thought using this blog to fix my dilemma will really help, as Google once again has led me to a dead-end with less than 2 definite answers.

So my dilemma is that there is this guy (yeah, it always seems to be about a guy), and I really, really, REALLY LIKE HIM! I mean, like crazy crazy! It started off as a small attraction, but now, it feels more than that.

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About 2 weeks ago, I got his number and we then on started to text the other almost everyday, and I had this urge to talk to him almost every second I spent at home doing nothing. But recently I think I got too attached, and just wouldn’t stop texting.


Now, I feel he only texts me after 2-3 hours of the text, and it gets disheartening every time I look at my phone and his name isn’t on the notification. Once in a while (like yesterday night) we get into a good convo about our day and other stuff involving tech and just different things about our lifestyles, but after when I try approaching him, he doesn’t say a thing until at like 12 am. Those texts aren’t too short, but not long either.

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I have tried reducing the time I send him a text, and I have gotten replies then, but my habit is hard to get off, but I am worried about why all of a sudden he barely answers, even though he never flips and says he is annoyed.

My panic level always seems to rise because of this (because my panic level is IMPOSSIBLY SHORT-CIRCUITED), and I want to be able to fix it soon enough to not damage our friendship.

Because we both don’t share classes together, talking at school is difficult, hence the texting after school or during the weekend, though I feel his weekends are jam-packed these days. Otherwise, I am thinking of hanging out in places where I can finally talk to him, without having to worry about not texting at home.

Anybody have any idea what really is going on here? I’d love to get some help, as even though I’m amazing at giving advice to others, giving it to myself never seems to work…

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Hope you guys can help, and Stay Awesome! 😀

Vivian 😉

PS:. I use Whatsapp, so yeah, I thought you all should know.



Hair care Tips from one who Hates her hair

If you don’t know me(like most of the world), I am known to hate my hair a lot. And by a lot, I literally mean A LOT! If one day my hair is perfect like in a picture, the next day when it doesn’t turn out right, you’ll immediately see me trying to pull all my hair out. Though the pain is too much to even attempt, so I just let it sit there and stay fuzzy.

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You see, Google is a horrible place when it comes to people with hair like me (no offense Google, you do rock). I seem to have a super weird mix. I was born with super curly hair, so whenever I wash my hair and condition it (or when it’s wet), it is very curly. But then I go to brush it and it becomes the biggest bush of hair on earth. Over a little coconut oiling and other extreme methods, I finally have the daily hair my friends see, which is wavy and nicely curled at the ends (which my friends always don’t believe to be natural).

My hair can never be straight until straightened with a hot iron, which I’ve only used thrice in my entire life (or 4 times, idk) And all those have been after a new hair cut. So my hair is different. It’s a super super SUPER dark brown (not black) and it is very thick. It’s not like all you people who aren’t from south east Asia, the smoothness and softness that you all have. Buenissimo!

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Anyways (back to topic!), I’m very happy to present to all you girls who are like me (if there really are because I think I’m like the only one), a nice set of hair care tips which I have attempted and it has worked incredibly. If you’re Indian, purrrrfect, you can relate, and if you’re not, well then your should see if it could work for you 🙂

#1: Keeping it nice and nourished: Our hair can turn dry up quite a few times (or like all the time), so it is quite necessary that one has nourished their hair once in a while a day or two before they wash their hair. I usually use coconut oil (the one that is meant for HAIR not FOOD) and rub it onto my HAIR, not my scalp or in a pan. Putting it on your scalp just makes it drip down to your face and make it oily and smells start to come in extreme cases (which just means I’ve been there).

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#2: Washing table: The fact that dry hair is super hard to take care of, I suggest if you have thick and sort of wavy/curly hair, washing your hair daily can be quite annoying as your hair never sets right and you always have dry hair. So it’s best you wash your hair once every two days and if you’re brave enough, you could wash your hair once a week! (but showering must be done, you can do just body if you want as well)

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#3: Brushes, materials: You need to have good brushes for your type of hair. I have had a childhood with just combs, but after the discovery of brushes, I’m never going to let the smooth touch of a brush ever go away. So have a nice HUGE brush, along with strong hair ties as your hair is huge and needs good holders (just like…..you know stuff on your chest). Conditioner is always your best friend as it sees to it your hair is not too dry to be rough, so always have one on trips, because Shampoos help clean, but conditioners make it better (don’t ever use a 2 in 1 shampoo pack, as the results are even worse and you’ll suffer like crazy- trust me, been there)

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#4 Hairstyles: Now whenever I seem to have googled stuff about hairstyles for my type of hair, I end up seeing dirty blonde hair put up in the AWESOMEST of braids, which my medium layered+dry and fuzzy hair cannot handle. Even though I have made my mind about letting it grow out for 9th grade, I have discovered a few hairstyles that might work, even though I don’t really have pictures. Google ones could work, and even though you might think “Ma hair is SO NOT gonna fit that” trust me, I tried this WITHOUT Googling about it, and I have managed to look presentable almost all the time in it.

Here’s a list: 

  • Half Ponytail
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Sorta this way, except the hair is shorter 🙂

  • Hair clip version of Half-ponytail
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This one, but your hair XD

  • A Banana Hair Clip Hairstyle (yet to try)- this hairstyle, I super duper want to do, but since you don’t get the hair clip here in this part of Europe, I have to wait till I’m in India to get a few. Do comment if you’ve tried this!! 🙂
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So, just replace her hair with your hair, and you can achieve something like this 😀

And I think that is most of the “new” hairstyles I have attempted this year that have turned out good enough. Otherwise, leaving your hair (if it stays right) or a simple mid-height ponytail does the trick (don’t always leave it as a ponytail).

I did attempt the waterfall braid on my hair, but because it is ME doing it on MYSELF, I sorta failed by having one side braid super nice and pretty, while the other suffered my impatience wrath and turned out all wonky. The day I succeed, I will celebrate 😀

Otherwise, I really hope you enjoyed this post, and do comment for any suggestions of what I could blog more about, and any questions if you even have any 🙂

Stay Awesome! 😀

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Why I Don’t Blog Like I Usually Do…

Hello Peoples!!

Okay, so I just wanted to keep this simple, mainly because I am super sleepy right now, and because I don’t want to be a zombie at school in class tomorrow.

You see, in my interesting school, 9th grade is considered as Middle School, but most of it is space related, so they changed the whole system. Which means, I am technically a freshman, but I am treated as the higher grade of Middle School. This in some ways is pretty cool, and in most is NOT!

I have a TON of responsibilities on my shoulders these days, and even though I manage to blog on my imaginary Vanessa’s diary (random stories), coming up with interesting posts (which I might have, but is too much work) and posting them so that everyone can read them is PRETTY hard to do.

DON’T WORRY, I am not going to post like this every now and then. I’ll try my best to get some quality work that I have been doing, and hope you all understand (of course you do! you’re bloggers!!)

Stay Awesome, and follow for any updates!!!!!

Vivian 😀


Identifying who really is a True Friend

Now obviously there might be people on this platform who might have published stuff like this, or you might just be that person who’s all like “Pfffft, I already know this stuff..“, but I feel that’s not true. It’s always in our mind that we know exactly who out true friends are, and I totally respect that, but then when one of them actually stabs you in the back, you tend to get depressed and lonely…

So, I’ve tried using one of my truest of friends ever’s example in showing everyone who really is a true friend. To just keep her identity safe, let’s just call her Emily.

Now Emily came to my school (international) 2 years ago in 7th grade, and she wasn’t really that good at English, which made it super duper hard to communicate with her. I at first thought my other set of friends were amazing and that we’d stay that way for the whole time in Middle School. Obviously, you can predict what happens once the next year starts.

Anyways, Emily started to hang out with us, and sit with us at lunch with my other 6 friends, out of which I was the closest to some other girl, let’s say Camille. When someone doesn’t know another’s language that well, it’s really hard to communicate and get to know the other, which is why Emily was always a little outcast at our table. So, she moved on to sitting with people in her English Learning classes and got along just fine with them.

So I’m left with tons of my friends, us feeling like a small burden just got lifted off with Emily’s departure, but in the end, it just made the whole situation worse. One of the girls in my group decided that me and Camille weren’t it to be part of the group, and over time, all the friends that I thought were true the way they were, just turned their backs on me. Camille and I were left to fend for ourselves and start anew in the next year of 8th grade.

Having learnt my lesson about big groups, I decided to start small and befriended a new student, Aiden (not his real name) and we hit it off. Camille was overjoyed, especially since her new opening as a person (opening up to me) and having a guy friend. This year was also the time when I opened up so much I had tons of guy friends, and it sorta also became my guy-friend phase.

Going back to Aiden, we were always hanging out, went for a movie (with Camille always wanting to tag along) that just 3 and half months into the school year, Camille started to get a little obsessive about being around Aiden. She was so…reluctant to ever not be there when me and him hung out that once when I did decide to invite my other new friends and him, and not her, she flipped and lied to adults to get me into trouble. I didn’t understand what was wrong about not having her around for just one time, but she didn’t think so and I ended up getting punished for ME doing the wrong thing.

Camille was known for a history of being left out and thinking her mental learning problem to be taken advantage of. It hurt my feelings that because of her, I was losing the friend, I BEFRIENDED. But nonetheless, she made many think it was my fault (mostly the adults she involved) and I could never be the same as I thought those first 2 months.

So I decided to move on and just start to stay with people whom it was easier for me to talk to, without having to be forced to only listen to Camille talk about herself all the time. They accepted me, and I enjoyed the company, but a month or two later, I felt I wasn’t being myself. Something didn’t feel right, and I didn’t know what to do anymore.

One day, I just decided that I’d just try sitting with Emily once in a while at lunchtime. We already had 2 classes together that we were close in (she was speaking way better now), so it was easier and I enjoyed sitting at lunch with her. In the end, I drifted off from those other people, and the rest of the year was spent with Emily and all her other friends. Emily didn’t care that we didn’t talk much in 7th grade, she knew it had been hard anyway, and she accepted me for who I was, and also knew that it wasn’t my fault for what happened to Camille.

I felt happy with Emily, she was always there for me the rest of the year, I met tons of other people who didn’t care about my past with others, and they accepted me for who I was and not my any looks or background. I found my true friend, and others who could be so, and I knew they’d stick by me for as long as they can.

That is what I’d like everyone to know. A true friend isn’t one who’ll tell everybody your secrets, or stab you in the back if you hang out with someone else without them. They might be funny, caring, and trustworthy at first, but the choice of being that way for all time is what decides whether they’ll stick by you or not. We all know it’s very hard to find that true friend because the world today is so judge-y these days, and sometimes people have to have a super bad time to know whose the true pal. But it’s always worth it, because the moment you know, you’ll never have to think twice again.

Hope you enjoyed reading this,and..

Stay Awesome! 😀

How My First Day of School went…

Just 3 days ago, I had my first day of school with a lot excitement and dread, and as  it was a very short week (school starting on Wednesday- who does that?) I feel it is worth sharing with people who really give a damn about first days of school.

But before we start I have the honor to tell you that now that I have my school computer (with QWERTY and AZERTY keyboard), I don’t have to worry about getting in trouble for blogging on the family computer!!!!! HURRAY!!!!

You must be thinking What on Earth are you talking about??, and you are ultimately right to think so because I never really mentioned anything like this in any other posts (silly me), but it feels good to share, so please just shut your mouth and keep reading.

Although I did mention that  I was going to do some Sims 3 thingy, but all my pictures are on another computer, and now that I’m a sort of occupied with a higher level of studies and even more homework, I don’t think I’ll really get to play that much (probably not until school’s over)

So let’s just move on to how my first day went:

The first huge problem I had that day (yeah, started out with a problem) was that I just couldn’t get my hair right. If you’re a girl I’m sure you can relate to the fact that when you try it for fun, it turns out perfect, then when you attempt before you go to school, it’s a disaster no matter what. The hairstyle I dearly wanted need something my mom couldn’t seem to find or buy so I made do with leaving my hair down (which is always a mistake after 3 hours into the day).

I was okay until we reached school, but my parents didn’t want me to reach too late, so I reach too early instead. Someone back in the past (no idea when or who) said the early bird gets the worm… Well I think your time had that motto, but in school, if you’re early, you probably will be wasting 30 minutes or so of your life, because all your friends come way later. And it’s even worse on the first day of school, because you have no idea where to meet your friends, and I ended up sticking to girl younger to me until I found other people to meet.

So yeah, my first hour wasn’t that good, but it got a little better once I met this guy, let’s just call him Tom. At first he seemed cool, and quite funny, but once people get comfortable, the TRUTH comes around. All my teachers were quite cool for the ten minutes I spent with them, but now that my classes have doubled in time to 1 hour and 30 minutes, it is hard to imagine how I can survive.

I did spend tons of time with my besties, and actually met two new girls. Now my friend/lunch table group is like 9-10 people huge. Didn’t think of inviting Tom with us, because he’s like the only guy in the group, so I handed him over to my guy friends to take care. Turns out after lunch, he was all alone, even after speaking to the Frenchies who seemed interested in befriending him.

Later when we met our PL Advisory group, we just chilled spoke about how boring or lonely we are in classes and wished for the day to end. I also did find out I have 2 classes with Jake (not his real name).

To end of the day, we just chilled out in the hot rays of sun (and when it should have been that way 3 weeks ago instead of now) and ate Popsicles, even though I threw mine out because I feel I’m the slowest popsicle eater on earth, so never expect me ever be hurried up in the process.

And then I just waited 30 extra minutes for my dad to come in the heat with my annoying brother and went home to just chill. Best boon of the day: no homework on the first day.

Why Blogging and Summer don’t work for me…

It’s sort of been a while since I last posted a blog, and, well…here’s why. When a teen like me finally gets a whole month of no school for themselves, or like any person gets such break, they ought to have fun, right? Blogging can be fun at times, but it is hard to muster up all that enthusiasm and deliver a post on that particular day. One reason why, whenever I tell you I’m going to post something every week, don’t try to look forward too much, especially after next week…

Anyways, I actually spent most of my summer SIMMING! Which means I played the Sims 3 for like days (not really because I just got the game two days ago, and played the older version before it…but who cares!). It’s actually a pretty cool book, and I really recommend it for teens who have nothing to do in their life, and would like to waste it away doing nothing with the life of a virtual one (just kidding!)

But here is the truth to anyone who reads my blog. Only expect 1 post from me a week. If you see 2, then I’m probably having a rush of ideas and wanna post them, but otherwise…yeah, just one post. I will try and make up the Ultimate Friendship Guide post by tonight or the end of this week, especially because school’s start soon (mine’s next week!  *panicked runs like a zombie in room*).

I’ve also had this idea of posting of this new legacy challenge I’ve started on Sims 3 (my first one!), and sharing the story with you all. And I think instead of deciding how many kids they have and stuff, I think I’ll just keep it on the opinions of all you viewers out there.

So…that’s all I have to say!

Bon journée tous le monde and Stay Awesome! 😀


A Guide to how a Tooth Extraction goes…

Just a few hours ago, I just had a non-painful tooth extraction of my premolars. A huge sacrifice (I feel a part of me left with it…just kidding) and I think for those of you who haven’t yet had a tooth removed in their lives (, here’s how it possibly goes…



  • Because this is your first tooth removal, you might get that twingey (if that is even a word) stomachy (lol) feeling that gives you a feeling of throwing up, even though you know you’re not stupid enough to do so. A good tip to distract yourself is (in my opinion) trying to read any of the magazines you see in the waiting room, and cross fingers that you flip through it in your mind when the dentist does his/her work. 
  • So now that you’re in the dentist’s room (your nerves are going helter skelter cuz you’re so scared) look around and start judging by the room if you think the dentist is nice or a mean one who doesn’t care. Talking to them usually helps you tell better, but usually, I think all dentists are nice and kind. 


  • I always find it really weird when sitting in the patient’s chair when at a dentist, because it feels very weird when they take the backrest down, and at times my head still stays up instead of relaxing which can at times be pretty embarassing. Next the dentist puts on their light, and you suddenly feel like you’re in a spaceship and there are aliens ready to cut you open to see your insides. (Well, not really, but the fact that your heart starts beating faster because someone’s putting stuff in your mouth and taking it off is like having aliens test on you)
  • I feel the only painful part of this whole procedure is when you’re given the anesthesia, mainly because the needles feel like pinches on your gums (which can be painful for some), and the bitter taste of some liquid that manages to come on your tongue. And being someone who hates bitter stuff (who doesn’t?), I’m too anxious to swallow something the person taking my teeth out puts in my mouth. 
  • Now the anesthesia is kicking in, which is funny and yet very, VERY weird. It’s a feeling like having a HUGE wad of cotton put into your mouth, and pushed against whatever-side-being-operated-on cheek. It is relief though to know you won’t feel a thing, but trust me, you’ll regret it later. 



  • I think this experience usually differs on the type of teeth you’re getting pulled, but nonetheless, it feels the same in pulling (though a permanent one feels…shocking cuz you though they were permanent for life). 
  • The feeling is like something pushing against your teeth, but you feel no pain, and when it’s out it’s almost like “Wait! When did that get out?” even though if you say no one is going to understand what you just said. 
  • My most favorite part of this whole process is this: Looking at that marvelous tooth that managed to get out, and it’s even cooler for permanents because their roots are soooooo long!  My dentist let me keep them in a cool container 😀
  • Don’t worry about the blood though, because you can’t feel a thing, which is also like saying you have a small bruise, when in reality you have a huge hole which is either gonna be empty forever or a new tooth might appear for the milkies

THE AFTERMATH (usually on the ride home)


Here’s the part that you regret having anesthesia for 2 main reasons: 

  • You look ridiculous. I don’t want to be offensive to anyone, but it’s the horrible truth. Because half your face is numb, and you can’t feel a thing, it is also very hard to control that part, so when you laugh, smile or even try to make a straight face, your mouth will look completely asymmetrical. But don’t worry, once the anesthesia wears off (which is at least 3-4 hours), your whole face will be completely fine. Even the funny talking which you’ll have will wear off, but more quickly than the face.
  • The PAIN gains consciousness. A horrible experience for me just this morning, you’ll feel like you’re in a horror movie (more like the ones where you’re possessed), and you’re the villain torturing the people around you (especially your parents and/siblings). The pain gets unbearable unless you take your prescribes painkillers on time, and please see to it you get home immediately, because if you’re young, and your parents go shopping and decide to leave you in the car, people might think you’re kidnapped and crying for help.

Now when you’re home there are a few things you need to be prepared for, and it will either be something to look forward to, or something to dread. 

  • You won’t be able to eat from one side of mouth because of open wound. It does get tempting if it’s a tooth a bit more to the front, but trust me (even though I haven’t tried), you wouldn’t want food going into those gaping holes.
  • The HORROR you see before you…when you look at yourself in the mirror. I’m not saying everyone does it, but many are curious enough to know how weird or changed their mouths look, whether they can smile without showing the gap and whatnot one would like to know through imagery, after having their tooth removed.
  • Missing your tooth. You might not be sentimental, and you might not really care about losing stuff, but for some reason, that open space where your tooth was, really does make you miss it no matter who you are. *sad music in background*
  • And last of all…ICE CREAM!!!! A number 1 healing your soul and reducing your pain product, this is one thing to always look forward to after an extraction, and flavour doesn’t matter, as long as it is cool and tasty 😀


That does it for how a tooth extraction day goes for person, with me happily writing to you about with a still slightly numb mouth, and an ice-cream filled stomach. Do share (comment) your experiences, and if you have any questions, just comment them below!

Stay Awesome! 😉